It’s like soft hotel porn, unsatisfying and sad …
Today is Black Tuesday, the one year anniversary of Brandy Rai’s death. I took the day off and spent it doing normal things, trying to stay distracted from the reality of knowing I don’t have him with me, that I won’t have him again till I’m gone. Read more »
Tomorrow, 7/23, is Brandy Rai’s birthday. He’d be 15 tomorrow and I really don’t know what I’m going to do. I’ve been dreading the day but not nearly as much as I am 8/21 when he passed away. I’m off tomorrow and will likely see both my doctors, go to the range, then come home [...] Read more »
Sometimes I feel like I’m barely treading water, my conscience fading in and out, unable to stop what’s happening. My life spins in and out of control. It’s like a never ending self inflicted nightmare. I can’t stop myself, I can’t control this circle of shit and I have a hard time influencing the outcome [...] Read more »
Well, another fathers day has come and past, and another fathers day has come and past that I didn’t bother to call my father. Save it, I don’t want to hear it. Having a conversation with him is a waste. I’m sure it means something to him in his scrambled brain, but it’s just not [...] Read more »
Last Tuesday night, August 21st, 2007 @ 11.35pm I had to put down Brandy Rai, my 14 year old Maine Coon who was the love of my life. He was suffering very badly from fluid in his lungs caused by a failing right side of his heart. There wasn’t anything they could do for him, [...] Read more »
Lyrics here, video below:
There’s a story in your eyes
I can see the hurt behind your smile
For every sign I recognize
Another one escapes me
Let me know what plagues your mind
Let me be the one to know you best
Be the one to hold you up
When you feel like you’re sinking
Tell me once again
What’s beneath the pain you’re [...] Read more »
Do you see me there? Do you understand anything I say? Can you hear me? Can you see me? I keep asking but you don’t respond. Do you not think I can feel? I don’t understand you and you don’t understand me. I just want your love, to be loved. Take care of me, take [...] Read more »